scepticism

Looking back to a year at The War College, I can agree with my leaders that I'm a pretty sceptical person, especially relating to spiritual experiences I've never experienced myself or which don't fit into the narrow box of this certain type of Christianity I grew up with.

Although I fully aknowledge that God can use a healthy sense of scepticism to protect me but in most of the cases I have to admit that I missed out.

I missed out on receiving the spiritual gift of seeing in the spirit.
Why? Because I was not sure if I wanted it.
I missed out on the experience of speaking in tongues when it was offered to me.
Why? Because I didn´t want it.

I had to repent. God, please forgive me. Forgive me for not trusting that you want to give good gifts to your children.

I know I missed out on the fullness God had for me at this certain point of time. But I still believe that God is a God who offers second chances.