sin hurts

Something must have changed in my life. At least I can't remember that anger turned against emotionally attacked me so strongly before.

Now it's different. It makes me sick. Getting in a fight with somebody, disagreement, somebody being mad at me - sometimes with pretty good reason -, I can't stand it. It's gripping my heart with fear like an evil hand crushing it. It's making me unable to go on, making me burst into tears - and it just won't go away!

Earlier in my life I probably would just have ignored it, fought back, insisting on my innocence. Today I see and feel the brokeness coming out of that, out of my sin.

Thank God for forgiveness!

Maybe that's what the bible means with the Holy Spirit at work in my heart, transforming it, making me more sensitive towards sin, unable to ignore what stands against God - so that we may stand before Jesus blameless, pure, holy.