victory in defeat

Just having moved to Maple Ridge I felt exactly like when I came to Vancouver for The Salvation Army War College the first time: alone, because of having left behind the secure community, uprooted, lost.

Breaking down kneeling at my bed I had to confess to God, that I simply was not able to go on, at least not in my own strength.

Just at this time I received a letter from my Mum. She wrote me a Scripture from Psalm 59, talking about God, my refuge, my place of safety in the day of distress.

This breakdown was the turning point preparing me for being available for God here: I just know that God deafeated the fear clinging on me, that he made me stand firm and enabled me to go on victoriously in his strength.

The whole experience reminded me of the time right before coming to Canada. I had to confess to God under tears how much afraid I was not to be able to go to the War College, because my visum hadn't come yet. A few hours later I received the letter from the Canadian Embassy with the permission to enter the country.

At our prayer and fasting retreat FULLNESS we learned about voluntarily choosing to be weak in order to release the perfection of God's power in us.

It seems to work. Try it out!