the bible study crisis

Honestly, it's kind of a sad story. Due to my struggle to really experience Jesus in his glory and truth by reading the bible I allowed myself to not read the bible at all more and more.

But this also gave God opportunity to point out some interesting truth to me, which helped me to realize the effect not reading the Word is having on me.

During the last couple of weeks I got quite mad at all kind of gross attitudes and roots of bitterness and condemnation that rose up from my heart. It made me angry and desparate since I desire to be more and more transformed by Jesus.

But then he pointed out some reasons for that: It seems to be quite clear. What is going to happen when I don't take his truth into my inner being, if I don't allow him to alter my thinking by the power of his word? Do you see the connection?

I kind of realized that this is the outcome, all of which is in my heart without God comes out even more the less I feed my spirit with what is from him.
I hope this helpes me to allow him to fill me up with his word again and again.

miracle man

I thought it was a only a story, that people actually meet Jesus in such a way that they allow him to absolutely turn their lives all over. It was hard for me to really believe that this could happen, that people meet Jesus and change their lives, right away - because I so rarely saw it happen with my own eyes.

But, it IS true! By God's grace I had the opportunity to experiencce it by counselling a woman who turned away from Jesus. But Jesus went to meet her, without help of men and called her back. So she returned to our church and really opened her life up to him.

Suddenly she realized that sleeping around with her boyfriend is not ok anymore.
Neither is smoking.
And she also made the decision to tithe.

Now she left her boyfriend, successfully stopped smoking and invites her neighbour to church.
Praise God! What a miracle!

I so desire to see that happen more often! Thank you, Jesus, for reminding me that this is possible! I only have one answer why this doesn't happen a lot, because we are not open to his correction and don't allow him to fully reign over our lives.