a year's review - 2006

When I published the first entry after taking up blogging again I was asked to give my personal year's review of this passed year which I spent ministering with my home corps in Hamburg/Germany.
Here it is.

2006 was a year which not at all turned out to be the way I had expected it to be like.

For me the year 2006 was
a year of tears
but also
a year of a new experience of intimate prayer.
It was
a year of God's renewed grace every single day
A year of God's faithfulness despite of my failure.
A year of learning that God's ways are different to mine.
A year of deep community with God in my loneliness and desperation.
A year of God helping me to fulfill my responsibilities.

In the beginning of the year God gave me this verse which carried me through all of this: Romans 4:21: "God has power to do what he had promised."

Most of the time I had the impression that he simply didn't want to give to me what I was aksing for. Looking back I question which of that were mistakes I didn't need to go through. One thing I'm convinced of is that this was THE ONLY WAY God could lead me to teach me his lessons and to transform my heart to beat more unisono with his.

When the new year 2007 started God miraculously ended the pain and led me to find new freedom by challenging me to submit under his will without my understanding. This set me free to walk on.